EJECT: Archives and Demos 2004​-​2014

by Si Connelly

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EJECT contains 23 tracks recorded between 2004-2014. Recorded with a wide variety of producers including Chris Potter, Dom Morley, Chenzo Townsend, Mike Crossey, Sam Williams and more. Mixed up with a self-produced collection of demos and live studio performances. Following up from 2016's debut album Youth // War // Joy, EJECT plays catch up on the mass of material recorded during a tumultuous but equally prolific period for SI. EJECT is released via SI's own label Dead Rabbit.

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released September 22, 2017

All Song Written by Si Connelly except Just Can't Say Goodbye (Connelly/Marston/Wells) and You Don't Dance Alone (Connelly/Wright)

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Si Connelly Brighton, UK

Si released his debut album Youth/War/Joy in 2016 via West One. Produced by Chris Potter (The Verve, Blur) and Dom Morley (Amy Winehouse, Adele).
The album features lead track 'Hurt You, which reached 22 in UK iTunes chart and attained rotation with ITV & Fox.
Followed by 2017 single Lion House and second album Eject, a 23 track double-album, shortly followed by 2018's 13 Ghosts EP.
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Track Name: Sober (feat. Hils)
LYRICS/

You've had enough, you're breaking
With eyes wired shut, you're taken
Yes everyone loves you, sweetheart

You want it all, you'll get there
You're inside out, forsaking.
Yes everyone here loves your makeup. Makeup

Just sober up

I don't know why but I'm sober
I don't know why but I'm misunderstood
And after everything, we're gone too soon

December came, and faded. 
And even now I don't understand why you waited
Better tell me once again because you faked it, and you didn't know what to do about that.

I don't know why but I'm sober
I don't know why but I'm misunderstood
And after everything, we're gone too soon
Track Name: Science + Fear
LYRICS /

Late last night I saw a silent waterfall
It held me as a fell into the cold
I should have let it go, I should have kept on running
But I lit lonely fires on my own

If you want to run
Then I give up
I'm not about to chase someone I love

Stars could fall but still, I'd look up for you
Every door I open locks shut before I can walk through
And if I give up, would you forget about the view
So we sink apart, and under we'll be soon

I saw them, man I stalled
Electric animals. I fired all of my arrows as they fell
But then I gave up like you knew I would
Like you knew I should have left well alone

Stars could fall but still, I'd look up for you
Every door I open locks shut before I can walk through
And if I give up, would you forget about the view
So we sink apart, and under we'll be soon

If fire alone could bury this cold, would you make it easy on yourself
With science and fear, we both disappear, and I won't love anybody else
I've shot arrows at stars, collided like cars, now I'm forever in your debt 
I'm forever in your debt
Still, I'd look up for you

Stars could fall but still, I'd look up for you
Every door I open locks shut before I can walk through
And if I give up, would you forget about the view
So we sink apart, and under we'll be soon
Track Name: Just Can't Say Goodbye
LYRICS /

Maybe I forgot to say the words
And maybe I forgot to tell you how I feel
Another day and I'll be someone else
And you might not recognize me

Maybe we gave up too easily
I told myself that I was over anyway
It's fear that hurts us more than anyone
And now the fear is caving in
And I'm nothing without you

I won't walk away
I won't leave
I know it's not that easy
I just wanna tell you I, I just can't say goodbye

Maybe I destroyed the evidence
And maybe you just kept on knocking when no-one was home
Maybe we can blame the circumstances, but you know they're only an excuse
And I'm nothing without you

I won't walk away
I won't leave
I know it's not that easy
I just wanna tell you why I won't I won't walk away
I won't leave
I know it's not that easy
I just wanna tell you I, I just can't say goodbye

But I could take another chance
Yeah maybe I can turn this around
Because if all of this love we have is real, then that's a start

I'm nothing without you

I won't walk away
I won't leave
I know it's not that easy
I just wanna tell you why I won't I won't walk away
I won't leave
I know it's not that easy
I just wanna tell you I, I just can't say goodbye

I just can't say goodbye
Track Name: Carnival Song (feat. Hils)
LYRICS /

Your blindfold kiss tricks me
A conversation nearly hits me head on
How did I miss that one
Bring back the stationary shops, with paper clips and glue I can stand up 

The careless carers do not care
They cover up all of those beautiful things we made with love
And it's just hit me that I'm the only one, who's seen your green eyes changing

So let's celebrate 
Cos' all of the love we make
It helps us to elevate ourselves into the light, into the light, into the light

This carnival is passing me
With clowns and drums, the noise it penetrates my skin
The sound of cars becomes a secondary thing
Just like a drug, it kicks me over, and then I join in

So let's celebrate 
Cos' all of the love we make
It helps us to elevate ourselves into the light, into the light, into the light

So gather up your home-made
I'm running out of everything I ever saved
We'll do without
They say that money drags you down in different ways
So hold me closer than before, we'll be okay

Come on and celebrate 
Cos' all of the love we make
It helps us to elevate ourselves into the light, into the light, into the light

(Join in)

Come on and celebrate 
Cos' all of the love we make
It helps us to elevate ourselves into the light, into the light, into the light
Track Name: Wide Open
LYRICS /

She sat down and sang, so softly
She hardly breathed
Her beautiful melodies helped me forget what I was before

But don't make me sad again,
Open my eyes, open wide, open wide

She don't sing to me lately, she hardly breathes
Just a stranger to me

But I'll never forget what we were, back then

But don't make me sad again,
Don't make me cry again
Don't make me sad again,
Open my eyes, open wide, open wide
Track Name: The Hurricane is Beautiful
LYRICS /

I might die for a hurricane
But my past puts me to shame
You couldn't see what you could have been
But you couldn't dream your enemies 

So wait for a light to shine you
And set your shadows free from your soul

I might live forever, but I sure won't anyone
Cos your hurricane is beautiful 
And your life will shine again

So wait for a light to shine you
And set your shadows free from your soul

They can't tell you what to write
In your head, there's a lifetime that you never had
And in my life, I'd sacrifice just one smile for the heartache that I never had

So wait for a light to shine you
And set your shadows free from your soul

I might live forever, but I sure won't anyone like you
Cos your hurricane is beautiful 
And your life will shine again

So wait for a light to shine you
And set your shadows free from your soul

They can't tell you what to write
In your head, there's a lifetime that you never had
And in my life, I'd sacrifice just one smile for the heartache that I never had

They can't tell you what to write
In your head, there's a lifetime that you never
And in my life, I'd sacrifice just one smile for the heartache that I never had

So wait for a light to shine you
And set your shadows free from your soul
Track Name: By The Hour (Album Version)
LYRICS /

Time keeps chasing everything
By I'm just trying to slow down
Time keeps chasing everything 
By I'm quite happy where I am

So go, go tell all your friends
Tell them I'm a liar 
I wanna pretend that we're not dying by the hour

Life's becoming a routine
But I am been doing what I please

So go, go tell all your friends
Tell them I'm a liar 
I wanna pretend that we're not dying by the hour

And it's so long Layla, and so long Layla
It's so long, so long

So go, go tell all your friends
Tell them I'm a liar 
I wanna pretend that we're not dying by the hour

Yeah so go, go tell all your friends
Tell them I'm a liar 
I wanna pretend that we're not dying by the hour
Track Name: Catch The Sun (feat. Hils)
LYRICS /

I'm falling to pieces
How can I release this
I cannot decide
I'm stuck in the middle of your loneliness, oh but I don't fit in

Tonight I've seen the end and nothing here's real

Go where I want, when I want, catch the sun if I like
Can I count the lines on your face, shows the time we've embraced

We've embraced, we've embraced

So I don't connect with my soap-opera side when I'm falling in line
This daily routine wears me when I go out
It's a desperate decline

To go where I want, when I want, catch the sun if I like
Can I count the lines on your face, shows the time we've embraced

We've embraced, we've embraced

But I'm losing you

Go where I want, when I want, catch the sun if I like
Go where I want, when I want, catch the sun if I like

Catch the sun

Over and over and over and over and over and over again

Like you
Track Name: Gold Pearls (Garageband Demo)
LYRICS /

I need somebody right now
But there's nobody like you
I need somebody right now 
Cos now I'm stark and cold,
And choked on your gold pearls
They fill up my eyes

Think I left something back there
Cos there's always something I lack
I think I left something back there
But now it's dark and so I sold all your gold pearls
I set you to stone

And in slow motion, I slide into the sea
Weightless, I recline, with your gold heavy eyes
Don't save me this time
Slowly I've become my worst enemy
Track Name: Don't Stay Sad (Live Demo)
LYRICS

Listen now
Don't wait for someone else to change your mind
Oh no, you've got it all wrong, just made a mistake,
So listen I've got something to say

It's not all the bad
It's not your fault if you're sad today
But don't stay sad in that way you do
Track Name: 1994
LYRICS /

Just found a letter that you had written 
Under a table that I have never seen

"I'm not about to tell you that I love,
I'm not about to tell you that I hate you
I'm not the type to tell you that I hate to love you, cos I need you"

When I dialed your number sent me straight on to answer phone
And so I left you a message to say that I was sorry for...everything 

Still, she's not about to tell me that she loves me
She's not about to tell me that she hates me
She's not the type to tell me that she hates to love me, cos she needs me

All she said to me
Was all she said to me

Just had a phone call from a distant relative
They said they found her on Sunday, too many sleeping pills

No time now to tell her that I love her
No time left to show that I needed her
There's no time left to show her that I'm lost without her, and I need her
Track Name: I Miss Grey (Live at Olympic Studios, London)
LYRICS /

How, how did I get here
See there's this picture in my pocket
Don't look quite like it used to
And now I'm scared, cos I can't hold you close when you're not there

And where, where did she run to
When the last time that we met she lived inside of my head
And now I'm sad, cos there's not much of you left from what I kept

Guess all I really ever wanted is to love you, and for you to love me back the way you used to.
Guess all I really ever wanted is to love you, and for you to love me back the way you used to.

And I miss grey when I should be thinking of you
It's a one-sided escape, I guess maybe I'll just learn how to dislocate all of the fear that feel when you're gone
When I'm all alone, and you've turned to stone

And now the stars, they bury me under
I'm like a car waiting to burn out
Everything here has sold
Guess I'm just another rag doll that no-ones gonna take home

And so it starts, I'm waving goodbye
Until you're just a dot lining the sky, where we named the clouds, that hang over our towns
They keep me on the ground, till I remember you grey
Track Name: Love Sick (feat. Hils)
LYRICS /

You think I'd have grown up a little
Use some grace, just a little
Move myself to the middle
Avoid all accidents 

Your idle mistakes will hurt you
As sooner or later they all do
I think I'll kick up a scene just to stop you from getting through to me

Cos I'm leaving this evening
This time I'm on my own
And I'm gonna get even
Believe me, you'll miss me when I'm gone

Yeah I'm gonna make you love sick
Love sick, love
Yeah I'm gonna make you love sick
Love sick, love
Yeah I'm gonna make you love sick

Hey, to live in the pasts not easy
So what does that tell you about me
I think I'm on a delay from the 90's
So much for apathy

And if I wake, it's gonna be a year too late to say I love you, one last time

Cos I'm leaving this evening
This time I'm on my own
And I'm gonna get even,
believe me, you'll miss me when I'm gone

Yeah I'm gonna make you love sick
Love sick, love
Yeah I'm gonna make you love sick
Love sick, love

See I don't wanna let you go down with this ship
No, I don't wanna let you go out like this
I'm not gonna waste a second chance

Yeah I'm gonna make you love sick
Love sick, love
Yeah I'm gonna make you love sick
Love sick, love
Yeah I'm gonna make you love sick

Yeah I'm gonna make you love sick
Love sick, love sick 
Track Name: Photograph
LYRICS /

So long say, today's goodbye
I held my tears, my stupid pride
I take care of myself

Another day, I'm on delay
Another record starts to play
I'll take care of myself, and not anybody else

So throw out the bags
Hey leave that camera with the film in
All dressed up in drag, well it seemed so funny at the time
So come girl, take me back this time
So I can always see your face

Another year played out the same
But broken windows hide the rain
But I see only sun

Another year and I'll be gone, with no one left to wave me on
I'll take care of myself, and not anybody else

So throw out the bags
Hey leave that camera with the film in
All dressed up in drag, well it seemed so funny at the time
So come girl, take me back this time
So I can always see your face

And I can't leave
I see your photograph and I can't breathe 
Girl I've wasted half my life on you
But my love, I can't love anymore

So throw out the bags
Hey leave that camera with the film in
All dressed up in drag, well it seemed so funny at the time
So come girl, take me back this time
So I can always see your face

Girl throw out the bags
Hey leave that camera with the film in
All dressed up in drag, well it seemed so funny at the time
So come girl, take me back this time
So I can always see your face


So I can
So I can always see your face
Track Name: The Lighthouse
LYRICS /

Sorry, seems to get the best of me
Lately, I'm dying in your arms
Slowly distance tears out love apart
So tonight I'll be sleeping in the lighthouse

It's not me, I'm not the one the brought the rain
We're too deep we're drowning here tonight
It's so me, to search for someone I'll replace
So now I'll only see you from the lighthouse

Where I'll call you up dear
And I'm here for you dear
How can I call you out dear
And I'll be there for you when you call me down
Track Name: You Don't Dance Alone (Demo)
LYRICS /

Get up, get up, get up

In the old days through every twist and turn
I mirrored every move you made to me
Oh how we hardly missed a beat

In our own ways, when we had two left feet
We never missed an opportunity to go out dancing in the street

So get up, get up, get up
You wanna get up, get up, get up
When you're on your own, you don't need a song 
When you feel like dancing, I feel like dancing

Get up, get up, get up
You wanna shake up, shake up, shake up
When you're on your own, you don't need a song 
When you feel like dancing, you don't dance alone

In the old days when we both felt the same
We never let the weather bring us down
You let your eyeshadow run in the rain

Now it's okay to dust off your dancing shoes
You only need a simple melody, and I'll be right there, back with you

So get up, get up, get up
You wanna get up, get up, get up
When you're on your own, you don't need a song 
When you feel like dancing, I feel like dancing

Get up, get up, get up
You wanna shake up, shake up, shake up
When you're on your own, you don't need a song 
When you feel like dancing, you don't dance alone

Spin around, just spin around
Let your arms stretch right out to me
Just let it out, just it let it out
I won't let you go now

So get up, get up, get up
You wanna get up, get up, get up
Though you're on your own, you don't need a song 
When you feel like dancing

So get up, get up, get up
You wanna get up, get up, get up
Though you're on your own, you don't need a song 
When you feel like dancing, I feel like dancing

Get up, get up, get up
You wanna shake up, shake up, shake up
When you're on your own, you don't need a song 
When you feel like dancing, you don't dance alone

So get up, get up, get up
You wanna get up, get up, get up
When you're on your own, you don't need a song 
When you feel like dancing, I feel like dancing

So get up, get up, get up
You wanna shake up, shake up, shake up
When you're on your own, you don't need a song 
When you feel like dancing, you don't dance alone
Track Name: Another Wedding Dance (Live at Rak Studios, London)
LYRICS /

They photographed the broken widow, she grieves for air 
Another chance to paint this picture bleaker still
Another chance to steal this moment back

So gather round you jaded lovers, that can't be saved
A long-lost mum, a long lost brother that can't be erased
Another chance to steal this moment back

Another year, another girl
Another wedding dance and I'll be gone for the moment
Another you, another me
Another wedding dance and I'll be gone for the moment, lost in the moment

They photographed this broken widow, she grieves for air
Another chance to sell this picture, paint it bleaker still
Another chance to steal this moment back

Another you, another me
Another wedding dance and I'll be lost in the moment
Another you, another her
Another wedding dance and I'll be gone for the moment
Lost in the moment
Here with me, moments, I fall in this moment
Track Name: Sparks (feat. Hils) - Live at Metropolis Studios, London
LYRICS /

I'm startled again
It doesn't seem so long ago that I was angry at them
But now I'm tired
But every time I fall asleep I light a fire and you're the spark

I'll speak to you, and it's fine
But it still doesn't feel quite right to call you mine
I'm not angry though, yeah I'm alright

But it's still a long time
It's still a long time till I get to you
It's still a long way to go it's true, but I'm trying

And yet still, I wake up, and yet still I wake up without anyone
Without moving I've become even further from you

It's not easy to hide
It's not easy to run when you're on the wrong side from the start
So I'm staring across, and it's us in colour
And all these colours bleed into one
And yet still you disappear, when I look closer in the mirror

Yet it's still a long time
It's still a long time till I get to you
It's still a long way to go it's true, but I'm trying

And yet still, I wake up, and yet still I wake up without anyone
Without moving I've become even further from you

For you, I look closer in the mirror

And it's still a long time
It's still a long time till I get to you
It's still a long way to go it's true, but I'm trying

And yet still, I wake up, and yet still I wake up without anyone
Without moving I've become even further from you

From you
Track Name: It's So Heavy When We Touch (Feat. Hils) - Rehearsal Recording
LYRICS /

Sure enough, I've been sure enough before
I've given up, and I don't give up easily
I lose my nerve, I lose my nerve when I get closer to you
It builds me up, then it reminds me of the time when I last heard your voice

And it's so heavy when we touch at night
And I'm just some complicated fool that don't know how to say goodbye
And it's just so heavy when we touch
Am I the only one with my arms stretched out wide enough
Oh, will I ever learn?
No.

Gave up on love
I gave up on love when I got nothing from you
You're so unbled, you're pencil-lead red
Yeah you shatter every time I get closer to revealing you

And it's so heavy when we touch at night
And I'm just some complicated fool that don't know how to say goodbye
And it's just so heavy when we touch
Am I the only one with my arms stretched out wide enough
Oh, will I ever learn?

So follow me
And write me a letter, that I can read over and over and over again until I'm better
Unsettle me and keep me unsober.
And let me sink under and under and under the sea, 
Where I'll make my home
And this heaviness will turn into stone
And your statues can leave me alone until I'm better

Oh, why you so, why you so, why you so heavy
Why you so, why you so, why you so heavy
Why you so, why you so, why you so heavy

Oh, will I ever learn?
Track Name: This Starved and Empty House (Demo)
LYRICS /

Did somebody close the window
Disconnect the dots and let the rain in
I sold all my trust for Bibles 
I read until my eyes span round like carousals

This starved and empty house, I know
But certainly, the walls they care for me

It's a strong man that draws the line
But I'm not that strong most of the time
This castle could fall to the ground 
So I burned down the walls to make it disappear 

This starved and empty house lights up like a firework.
And starts to empty out all my sins

And so the fire slows as broken leaves begin leaves begin to go out too
And it's clear, I'm not what I seem
And so flowers go, as woken birds begin to go
In time all this love should open our eyes
All this love should open our eyes

But you didn't wanna ask any questions, did you?
Track Name: Paint Me A Cow / Interlude (Garageband Demo)
LYRICS /

I sit and I wait...
But it's a long old motion now
And I count delay, but I'll get even and lost in the crowd

What happened to you made it easy to lose

So make me unstuck and paint me a cow
They call this bad luck when I'm upside down
If we're not in love, she'll just put me down, down
Could somebody paint me a cow

I had something to say but got every word back to front
And now my old friends are dead, they dug a hole for me but I climbed back out

What happened to them made it hard to pretend

So make me unstuck and paint me a cow
And don't wish me luck when I'm upside down
If we're not in love, she'll just put me down, down, down, down


So won't you console me
Draw me a map, I'm unsteady
Markdown an X where you saw me last
So I can find myself, I can find myself again

So I sat and stared, but the cow kept laughing
I guess I'm just unprepared
Guess after all I'm still stuck on us

INTERLUDE / 

I must admit that I was broken from the outset
Still skimming stones, while you were draining out the lakes
I must admit that I was broken from the outset
Still skimming stones, while you were draining out the lakes
Track Name: Battleships
LYRICS /

This siren in my head, it's only answering you
I was only cold when I opened the window when you left
I rub the salt in the wounds to punish myself, for all the dirty things I've been thinking about when there's no one around me to keep me grounded
Now there's no one around here to keep me grounded now

There's this broken old radio I can't get out of my head
Cos for 27 years I've been looking for someone, and I ain't even close yet
You see, I'm a man on a ledge, I'm only waiting for god
I prolifically relay all the love that I break

And then I send out the battleships to keep me from drowning
And then I sink all your battleships to keep me from drowning you

So hold me close now, cos this war might last forever
But you should know I'm not the man you used to love
We can sail to Paris, and get drunk on wine in winter 
Writing songs about the time we fell in love

I rub the salt in the wounds to punish myself, for all the dirty things I've been thinking about when there's no one around me
You see, I'm a man on a ledge, I'm only waiting for god
I prolifically relay all the love that I break

And then I send out the battleships to keep me from drowning
I'm gonna send out the battleships to keep me from drowning
It's true nothing ever changes, see it's all just the same, girl
I'm gonna sink all your battleships to keep me from drowning you
Track Name: Low (Live at Giant Wafer Studios, Wales)
LYRICS /

Secret passages let me out this place
Cut my arms and legs, make me erase
Cast iron candlestick, cast a flame on me
Let's go from the top of the last page

So I'm low

Cold fire let me go
Cold fire let me down
Make-up tears dried on, on my cold, cold face

So I'm low

Suddenly I wanna stay in your arms
Suddenly I wanna stay in your arms
Suddenly I wanna stay in your arms
Suddenly I wanna leave the country

So I'm low